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| Posted By: Dragonmaster Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 529 | RE: Softcore |
| Posted By: Dragonmaster Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 528 | RE: Softcore GirlUWant, Two things with school. One, my cuzz was going to do my student aid for me becouse I had a full time job and didn't have time. Apparently she didn't either, so my FASFA and a few other things where never finished. I could have called in a few favors from a few professors and got myself in for some of the volunteer work I did with the culinaty class. Over the summer me and Chef did a wedding at a local winery, 250 people. Non of the other class showed up, so it was just me her working our asses off. The school made a butload of money off of that one. So anyway, I'd have to have left school anyway. Mom was diagnosed with colon cancer around christmas last year and had to leave work in January, grandma needs someone at home also to help take care of her. I finished out the semester then moved back in with them. We have a big family home, but I needed my own space, so I built a room off the back of the house, lol, still need to get it wired, gets kinda cold without a heater, and theres no way I'm unpluging this laptop from the extentiion. I'm making utilities and doing some fixups on the house. My room for one, the bathroom gets redone after the first of the year, and new siding on the outside. I'm making about $250 a week at starbucks, only becouse I'm doing 50 hours. My family needs me right now, even if thy are using me. I'm trying to be different from the others in my family, like one who says she's to buisy to spend weekens with her mom, or the one who only calls when she needs a ride somewhere and needs money, or the uncle who comes to the house and tells us were all going to hell when it's only me thats going. It may suck for me, but it's only temp. I do like my job now, which is new for me. Thats keeping me going at the moment. I'll get enuf saved up to get a car, I have to pay cash becouse of medical bills from when I had cancer (neuroblastoma). After I get a car I'm going to get school paid off and finish my classes. I've taken all tha pastery classes and only need my managment. Or I could end up as a truck driver. Its easy to get your CDL, and I love to drive. Besides, I might get to find out who killed Kaida with his coal truck, and give him whats coming to him. (he did a hit and run, never found him) Ops, sorry, made this a little to long, my bad. |
| Posted By: GirlUWant Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 522 | RE: Softcore Dragonmaster - I don't know if you read my thread to you a few weeks ago about forgiving the coal truck driver or not, but I had mentioned that if he was just a great guy trying to support his family and then made a mistake that you should be able to forgive him, but a hit and run, well that would be much harder to forgive because that means that he didn't give enough of a crap to stop and make sure that your loved one was okay. I had a friend that killed herself in 1997 and I still miss her so much! She was such a great person, the one that I could tell my deepest secrets to and know that they weren't going anywhere and that she wouldn't judge me. I went to a tech school last year on her scholarship. I really hope that you get to finish your education. Were you going to a tech school or a University? The tech school here has a one-year culinary program. Good luck and remember that even though there are people that come to this site that give you a hard time, there are those of us that have been touched by your life. If someone tells you that you are being selfish for considering suicide, let me tell you from experience, it sucks for the people left behind that care about you. No one will ever replace my friend. I loved her very much, but when I see the pain that it cost her mom and dad, also her husband and friends, I feel that what she did was selfish. It makes me sad that she couldn't verbalize to anyone what was going inside, because like you, she had a lot of people that expected a lot from her and I think she caved from the pressure. She was beautiful, had a gorgeous husband, drove a new Trans-Am, owned a lovely house, had a nice ass so the guys all thought (LOL!) and was the most fun person ever in my opinion. I wish that I would have known what she was feeling so that I could have been there for her. TLC |
| Posted By: dragonmaster Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 517 | RE: Softcore Thanks I guess it just gets me sometimes that I have nothing but what I do for other people. I only have one good friend, and I havent known her that long. Everything I've ever wanted in life was right there, right in front of me, and within the last year I've seen it slip away. I'm stuck in a position with no way out. I need someone, and I've never said that before. I've always been alone, exept for Kaida. Now I have nobodie to tell my secrets to. It's just built up over the last few years to this. I'm so stressed right now that i havent "seen" anything in over a month now to. I don't know whats up with that. I've always had it. It's like when I woke up from my cancer surgery and couldnt smell. Your like "oh ****". It's tuff to loose a sence. Much less two. and now when I meditate I cant get my heart rate down, or focus, then I just get more ****ed. I'm sorry for your loss. Thanks for your support. I know i'm strange, but that makes me "me". TLC all around. Thanks again. |
| Posted By: GirlUWant Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 515 | RE: Softcore Whoa - what do you mean by losing a sense? You lost your sense of smell forever, or was it just temporary? I have never heard of that! That would make being a chef kind of difficult wouldn't it? I was in an "anonymous" group that really helped me...maybe you should seek a group that you can feel comfortable opening up to that you know that what you say there stays there. I have kids so I have to give to others a lot too. I am a much less selfish person for it, but I can see where I have made mistakes where I didn't take care of the inside "ME" which you must do so that you can be the best person you can be for yourself and others. If you meditate, that is awesome for you! I could never meditate because I am such a hyper person that it just drives me nuts! I would rather drink a Red Bull and just keep going 90 miles an hour! |
| Posted By: dragonmaster Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 512 | RE: Softcore My cancer was in my sinus and spinalcord. So when they took out the tumor my "smellers" went with it. you'd be surprised about cooking in a resturant. You've got at least 10 things going on at one time and cant make out one smell. For my food I go by look and texture. Pasterys are what I'm best at. i can see when the sugar is at the right temp., or the chocolate is tempred corectly. Smell comes in more with the meats and savory foods that i dont cook so much. Try a double shot from starbucks. A one ounce shot of expresso is equal to eight ounces of normal drip coffay. There was one guy that used to come in and get 10 shots in a large cup and add heavy cream to it. We havent seen him in almost a month, so I think he had a heart attack. (10 one ounce shots = 80 ounces of coffay. (our large coffay is 20)) I'm not alowd to dring coffay anymore (heart problems) I'm more of a tea person. Although I'll sneek a shot or two if I need to wake up. |
| Posted By: dragonmaster Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 511 | RE: Softcore Forget about the other scense. I was just bull****ing. (looks out window nervously for people with torches) (looks out window nervously for people with torches)< |
| Posted By: GirlUWant Posted On: Nov 27, 2004 Views: 507 | RE: Softcore I don't like coff-ay at all! I can tolerate it if it has like a huge amount of chocolate and a lot of sugar and cream. I like iced tea, especially flavored teas and I have made a Chai Tea Latte for my daughter before that came out well, but I didn't care for it. I'm addicted to Mountain Dew, which is really bad for you! I could be addicted to the Bellini tea from Olive Garden, that stuff is awesome! I wish that I knew how to make it. I used to live in Tacoma, Washington when the whole Starbucks craze started in the late 80's, early 90's. I always wished that I liked coff-ay! I bet that is a cool atmosphere to work in. |
| Posted By: Scaperpixie Posted On: Nov 28, 2004 Views: 496 | RE: Softcore Hey Guys, I am new here, I am a friend of a certian "dragonmaster" we work together and I love him like the little brother I never got to have. I would trade him for my one of my real brothers and I think he would trade me for that dragon smashing brat he got stuck with.I know that I must be that one friend he speaks of on here, I am honored to have that title. Oh, and hardcore porn is good for one thing, comedic value! Give me some "Queen of the Damned" or some written vampiric or fantasy erotica over it any day! |
| Posted By: Dragonmaster Posted On: Nov 29, 2004 Views: 492 | RE: Softcore (huge grin) Your worth more than 100 little brothers. I'd say something else, but I'd just embarase myself. |
| Posted By: that one guy Posted On: Nov 29, 2004 Views: 490 | RE: Softcore really funny pill ad spoof. i've never been that depressed dragonmaster but i have had the dog of depression bite me in the ass a couple of times. i think that people that give you sh*t don't know what kind of things you've been through and i don't either but i still think you have it alot rougher than i do. the little brother that broke your glass dragon? how old and sstrong is he? and what state do u live in? cuz if i had a lil bro and he broke. . .say my black zippo lighter /w an anarchy simbol on it i would kick his ass and make him buy me a new one! (18.17 +S&H) im sorry you don't have ne1 to talk to and share secret's with. if you want you can e-mail me at dg2_firepit@hotmail.com. -That one guy |
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