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Posted By: susan lake

Posted On: Nov 17, 2006
Views: 3712
I've had a nervous breakdown due to rape

No one will believe me....because it was a friend that i let in my door....he was kind and attentive at first...but...one thing led to another...and he hurt me so bad....so bad....i co-operated to save myself....he wouldn't stop when i begged him to..i told him he was hurting me...i cried and screamed but he paid no attention...only his needs counted....i said stop! dont!...i thought he had ruptured me because i was so tiny inside....but thank God i was just badly brused....i am a nurse, so i treated myself for the brusing and uh...so much pain and soreness...it was awful....now...i am blamed by everyone that i have told but one woman friend that understands....i can't go on...everyone tells me to just forget it..that i was stupid and to blame...that i deserved it....but i know that i didn't ...so i have shut down...and just sleep in bed alot...with pills that the doctor gave me for sleep....i have a disorder called fibromyalgia...it has gotten worse...so much physical pain...terrible pain all over....but it is nothing compaired to the emotional pain that comes in waves over me....i can't go another step...i can't pretend that i'm ok anymore and that i can still go on...i can't go on another step...not one step...everyone pulls at me...wants something from me....but i have nothing left to give...i almost put myself in the hospital...but instead...because i am a nurse...i've decided to have a nice quiet breakdown here at my lil house ...where everything is a normal surrounding...i shut off the phone...so no one will pull at me anymore....take from me...blame and shame me anymore...i am empty...just the pain for company....i can't go another step...and must stop..withdraw...till i can resume my life and hopefully pick up the pieces...or start a new life....i have no idea how long this will take...I freaked out all night till i realised that i had had a nervous breakdown...i know the symptoms...i have no one else to tell...forgive me...and i hope i can forgive myself....much love to you all...pray for me...please....my name is Wren...and I a Cherokee woman....bless you all...i am praying for each and everyone of you....


Posted By: Emma Walker

Posted On: Nov 14, 2006
Views: 3561
how do I move on

I was raped over a year ago and i dont know how to deal with any of it...I have just started to tell people and they dont seem to get it. I told my best friend and he jokes about it. when I tell him Im scared or have a hard time sleeping he asks why like its something I should be over.....he wants me to tell him who but than I know he will want to press charges and if he does than my family will have to know...and they have been through to much pain already. and I dont want to have to face it in the courts. i dont want the man who did this to me to do t to anyone else but i dont thin i have what it takes to stop him. I cant prove he did it even though at the time I was black and blue because he punched me in the ribs but I was afraid and didnt tell anyone, I told someone I had been hit but thats all and now I have no way of proving it so why bring it up when they will only say I am lying and it will hurt me more. I hate this! how do I deal with this! How do I move on?


Posted By: Christie Palmatier

Posted On: Nov 14, 2006
Views: 3541
I was raped on May 6, 2006

I was raped by my best friend's ex-boyfriend. I said no, but he kept going. I know I was raped, but I haven't faced reality yet. I'm looking for help. I'm too afraid to face reality. I'm only 15. Does anyone have any advice?


Posted By: johnnny

Posted On: Nov 11, 2006
Views: 3503
to much 4 me

iwas raped at thirteen by a guy i knew then at 14 by my b.f.s brother in law of course she isnt my friend they all still tell me its my fault he was 30 at the time i still feel like i could have stopped himor some thing but now i am 21 and cannot tell my husband no when it comes to him wanting me even if i am hurting or whatever i just zone out untill he is done i wish someone could help me counselors have been no help i start to get to know them then theyswich me to another and i have beeen forced a lot more times than this so it must be me that has the problem


Posted By: little one

Posted On: Nov 7, 2006
Views: 3510
Hurting

I was eight years old when a fellow classmate raped me while his mom was supposed to be babysitting me, that was 11 years ago and it still hurts, will it ever stop hurting?


Posted By: sammy

Posted On: Nov 5, 2006
Views: 3203
rape

is there any body there?


Posted By: tricia

Posted On: Oct 28, 2006
Views: 3250
friend in need

i was raped abouy 3 in half years ago and i am still haveing flash back what can i do


Posted By: littleone

Posted On: Oct 28, 2006
Views: 3192
scared

i was a victem of date rape tonight by my sisters boyfreind....i dont know how i'm going to handle this...


Posted By: m.o.

Posted On: Oct 27, 2006
Views: 3178
talk

online, on the phone, or in person...talk to someone. I waited twenty years to start dealing with my rape. wish I hadn't.


Posted By: jenlight

Posted On: Oct 21, 2006
Views: 3162
First thing I did...

was bang on doors when I escaped. Next, someone called 911. Call the police FIRST.


Posted By: Anonymous

Posted On: Oct 10, 2006
Views: 3201
Poll

It was hard for me to call anybody and is alot better going online first!


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